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Let Your Words Match Your Actions

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TW: Religious trauma, spiritual abuse, binging, eating disorder, suicide, mental illness, depression, anxiety, PTSD.  Dear Reader,   It's been two weeks since I published "An Unsent Letter to the Church." A letter in which I called our church out on their part in "feeding" my eating disorder and for failing me, and my husband, and our two sons by abandoning us in our darkest hour.  I've had many responses.  People who said that while the details may be different, the letter could have been written by them.  People who have fallen through the cracks of the church and felt alone in their experience.  You see, I am not alone in my experience and if I had stayed quiet and small, I would still be wondering if it was just me.  If something was wrong with me.   One friend called me out by reminding me that I am very good at hiding.  Yes.  I am very good at hiding and I have been working on that.  (She was not the first person to bring this...

An Unsent Letter to Our Church

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TW:  Eating disorder, patriarchy, oppression of women, religion, church, suicidal ideation, and religious trauma. Dear Reader,  This is not a post for the easily offended. It is a copy of a therapeutic letter I wrote to try to heal, to grieve loss, to continue on my recovery from an eating disorder, and to practice taking up space. I am taking up space here. First, for myself. I need my experience to be known. Second, for anyone else who may have been hurt by the very place we were told showed God's love. You are not alone. Your' experience matters. I invite all who are genuinely curious to pour themselves a beverage of their choice (mine would be Earl Gray tea), cozy up with a soft blanket or your dog... or both, and read on. Keep in mind that this is MY experience and there are other things that went on or are going on in which you and I may never know. I invite comments that are helpful, supportive, or your own personal experience. What I will not allow is judge...